I grew up in a strict home, and many experiences in my childhood left me believing I was never good enough — a belief that shaped how I viewed God for much of my life.

Although I came to know Christ as a child, I carried deep feelings of shame and inadequacy into adulthood. Without guidance about sexuality or emotional health, I developed unhealthy habits that eventually led to addiction. Over time, this struggle contributed to deep personal and relational brokenness, including the loss of my marriage, estrangement from my children, and tens of thousands of dollars in legal fees and the division of assets. These were the darkest days of my life, and I believed that my life was over and I’d never recover from this suffering. I was distraught, in despair, and totally broken.

However, at my lowest point, I found hope and support in a community of men who helped me face the roots of my addiction and begin a long process of healing and recovery. Through faith and clinical professionals, I am now free from addiction and have experienced true, lasting change and a deep peace I never knew before. I discovered that God was everything He claims to be. He was enough, even when I lost everything.

In time, I remarried a woman who knows my full story and chose to love me anyway. We now have a child together, and I feel as though I’ve been given a second life — one defined by honesty, hope, and redemption.

Looking ahead, I want to help other men find freedom as I have, and walk alongside them in their lowest, darkest moments. My greatest hope is to be the friend and mentor that I wish I had found much sooner on my journey, before all the destruction and pain. I want other men to see God’s restoration at work in my life, and come to experience the same in theirs, no matter how grim the situation looks.